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Hi Matt.

Unsure of myself and everything, in social situations I’d adopt accents and mannerisms to fit in. So tiring, and I felt phony. I didn’t know back then that I was ‘masking’ but when I came to understand (late diagnosis) ASD I looked back and thought about, still do, starlings mimicking to better survive in this or that territory. This piece you've written asking if traditions are important, reminded me of all of that. I’m hoping to engage more instead of just enjoying the pieces I read here on Substack and leaving a like, but hope it’s okay - I think it is - to discuss what resonates with my own experience/s.

What I read into this is that you see these customs not as mere pageantry but as adaptation mechanisms. The image you create of being "paraded in public in a silly hat and white dicky tie" becomes something more than costume, it transforms into a kind of protective mimicry, a way of claiming space in an ecosystem that wasn't originally designed for you. That metaphor of Mentos in a Coke bottle captures the instability of being young and unsupported, an explosive, uncontainable energy of precarity.

And you understand that rejecting these traditions - however archaic and silly they might seem - can sometimes be a luxury afforded only to those who already feel secure in their belonging. Traditions serving as "touchstones" reveal a profound truth about belonging, how we seek anchor points in unfamiliar territories. (You’re a navigator using stars to find your way through unknown waters!)

While not in the care system, my husband M and I are from backgrounds that weren’t always easy, and in these more 'middle class' (if you like) days of ours, and at our age, we find ourselves examining our privilege (is it really okay to take a pizza oven to the campsite) but I think we’re more comfortable with our privilege: it's a kind of emotional erosion in many ways, a slow wearing away of defensive layers that sometimes shield us from uncomfortable truths. There's something deeply honest about reaching this place of acceptance, reading this ace piece you’ve written I reckon you’ve arrived at that place sooner than we did. Nice one.

Thanks for a beautiful, interesting piece.

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Louis Glazzard's avatar

Completely relate about the traditions, it’s super hard to understand and can feel like a secret language. Gorgeous writing!

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